Cameras and pictures

One of my favorite things to do years ago was take pictures. I had turned into a photography preoccupied person. I would spend hours reading books on photography and browsing the internet for photography related blogs. I bought a DSLR camera with my first pay check from my first job even after I had tried to talk myself out of it. I was so ecstatic about it. I was sad to see that I was still a atrocious photographer even after getting such a wonderful camera.

I didn't get good at using it for several years. As my pictures got better, more and more of my friends expected me to take pictures of everything. I started to lose interest in it as time went on, which is not surprising since that's what I always do. I was tired of bringing my camera everywhere. It was too big to fit in any of my bags or pockets. There were never any photos of my friends with me in them because I was always the photographer. I was constantly pressured to put my photos online so that everyone could see them as soon as possible. It was just too much work and I began to detest taking pictures instead of loving it.

Sometimes I look over at my downcast little camera and I feel a pang of longing. I think that there is still a love of photography within of me, but I can't help but remember all the annoying things that made me stop.

Possibly me and the camera can take it slow. I can go out independendently into the city to take pictures. I won't let anyone turn me into that person who has to take pictures of everyone again.