Cameras and pictures

One of my favorite things to do years ago was take pictures. I had turned into a photography preoccupied person. I would spend hours reading books on photography and browsing the internet for photography related blogs. I bought a DSLR camera with my first pay check from my first job even after I had tried to talk myself out of it. I was so ecstatic about it. I was sad to see that I was still a atrocious photographer even after getting such a wonderful camera.

I didn't get good at using it for several years. As my pictures got better, more and more of my friends expected me to take pictures of everything. I started to lose interest in it as time went on, which is not surprising since that's what I always do. I was tired of bringing my camera everywhere. It was too big to fit in any of my bags or pockets. There were never any photos of my friends with me in them because I was always the photographer. I was constantly pressured to put my photos online so that everyone could see them as soon as possible. It was just too much work and I began to detest taking pictures instead of loving it.

Sometimes I look over at my downcast little camera and I feel a pang of longing. I think that there is still a love of photography within of me, but I can't help but remember all the annoying things that made me stop.

Possibly me and the camera can take it slow. I can go out independendently into the city to take pictures. I won't let anyone turn me into that person who has to take pictures of everyone again.

Mischief Managed

I was very young when Harry Potter was released in the US.

I think I was in the 7th grade when I first heard about it, only after the third book had come out. One of my friends in class told me I needed to read all the books ASAP. She also confessed that she loved to write fan fiction about the books. I didn't care since i didn't know what fanfiction was.

Sometime that same day I read a few chapters from the first book and pretended that I thought it was the best thing ever. After that I didn't touch any of the books for years.

I remember that conservative Christians would not stop talking about these books. They felt that the books were promoting witchcraft. My little sister had a copy of one of the books that she hid under her bed.

I finally decided to start reading all of the books when the final film was released. I knew it was time to finally dive in since I didn't want to miss out on something so well loved.

I was not thrilled by the first book, to be honest. I loved the setting but it felt like a book for kids. But then I read the Prisoner of Azkaban and it completely changed my mind. I was in love with Sirius Black. I aso thought Lupin was an amazing character. I totally dug the dementors. And now I love Harry Potter more than anything.

Play me a song

I bought a guitar, and several years later I have not learned to play it. I made a promise to myself that I was going to practice a little bit every day so that it wouldn't be a waste of money. For a couple of months I did practice, and I began to develop calluses and all of the types of things that happen to you when you begin to play the guitar. However I tend to give up on things quickly when I don't improve as much as I think I should.

So it's been about a year since I've even touched my guitar. It even has dust on the top of it. I really want to get back to playing, but I find it tough to find motivation by myself. It doesn't help that I have really small hands, which makes several chords physically impossible for me to play at all. It's really depressing.

I think that I have way too many hobbies. I have the desire to learn about every single thing in the world. I have a complete lack of focus which means I am only mediocre at many things. I think the term for that is jack of all trades, master of none. It's one of the few expressions where I truly understand the meaning.

I think I should pick up the guitar again. It would be great if I could at least learn a song on it this year. The guitar is really lovely and it would be sad to not use it.

Tech is crazy

There are times when I look around at the world we live in now and I can't believe how crucial technology is in our lives. I have always loved everything technology related, even as a child. I'll never forget when we bought our first computer in the 90s. I was addicted to it. I played on it for hours. Then we got the internet and I spent even more time on it.

People used to think it was extreme to spend that much time online. It meant you were addicted if you spent too much time online. It was considered really geeky to spend so much time online. Now being connected to the internet 24/7 is a part of everyone's lives. It's so weird how things can change. It's completely normal to spend hours on YouTube looking at cat videos since that's what everyone does now.

Tablets are the most astounding thing to me. We all walk around the world with these little flat computer screens. I wonder what the versions of us from the 90s would think if they could see what it would be like now. We would have been like, holy crap, we've got high tech super pads! Wild how much the world can change. And really astounding too.

I'm not complaining because I love living in a high tech world. I'm ecstatic that this sort of thing is in and I can love it plainly.

In other news, I really like drinking tea and I like reading information on tea. I like this site here.

Animals yay

I would love to have some pets I have always wanted to have masses of pets but I can't have them since I am allergic to every animal. At least I am not allergic to humans. What I have really been wanting lately is a cat. And that is actually my strongest allergy, so I know that I could never have one unless I get some sort of really expensive cat that has been altered in a laboratory. Or I could go for one of those awful hairy cats.

I was under the impression tha dogs would be the safe animal for me to get since I had never had an allergic reaction to them. Then my aunt brought her dog around and I had a monolithic allergy attack. I couldn't breath and my whole face became swollen. So I guess it's safe to say, no dogs for me either.

The only sort of pet I could probably have are fish, and who wants to have fish anyway? Fish can't even do anything and they sure don't love you. Sure they are attractive, but they are definitely the most boring pets around. I want a pet that I will be able to snuggle and a pet that will love me back. Maybe I should start saving my money for that special lab cat after all.